WHY

Why is it dat I crave for his presence…….
Why is it dat I love watching his gestures when he stands next to me…
Why is it that I search for him and wait for him, knowing that he wont come…..
Why is it that I commence and finish my prayers with his name and asking lord to give him the best in everything he does……
Why is it that his silence communicates more with me than his words……….
Why is it that I blush even at the utter of his name!!!!!

What spark does he possess in him that makes me give away anything and everything for him….
My life gets centralized around this man and I wish to make my self complete with his presence…
The moment I say…."I love you"….he can see the depth of respect I hold for him in my eyes…
The world seems to be beautiful with him and moreover I seem to be in heaven….
He has given a new dimension to everything in my life, a new meaning to HAPPINESS
But I still have this fear………fear of losing the best part of my life….
I fear leading a life that is hollow without the man of my life…
I fear the circumstances…..which may snatch him away from my eyes….
Why cant I assure myself that I have my love and will always be with him…….
Why …why cant I find the answers to all these doubts and questions I have???
Why??????????